Well I decided to do something at the last minuet, but I would have been on time if not for another student in my class, but I'm not going to blame her for it. It's mostly my fault because I procrastinated.

I had never had a problem before now. In my digital sketchbook class I made some last minuet changes to my pictures and the teacher warned me about how I had 10 minuets. So I saved my last pictures and when I went to load my personal file on to the main class computer there was somebody else on there so I went up. The minuet I did the teacher pointed at me and told me I was late. I was skeptical about it so I sort of smiled then focused on getting onto the computer. The student on there had also waited until the last minuet to do something and she had also screwed herself up on the computer itself. She tried to fix her mistake and the teacher was fed up. Me and another student were sent back to our seats and now we have to go last. I asked the teacher before he did this if we were REALLY late and he said we were. My stuff isn't even on the computer yet. SIGH. I'm typing while other people are viewing their pictures right now.

I don't care to critique everybody else's pictures right now. I've realized I'm no good at even editing my own pictures let alone someone else's so I don't care. It's childish, I know, but I don't know what to look for in pictures that the artist didn't already intend to point out. I notice other people say things and notice things I would have never thought of. So whatever. -___- I'm sad, mad, want to blame someone else besides myself, there is no one else to blame, and I won't know the true grade for this set of pictures I took becuase I'm losing 20 points I think for being late. I don't like this class anymore at least, not at the moment. So I don't know if I did good or not. I feel sorry for myself which is not good. Sympathy isn't for ourselves its for others....I would have had my stuff in on time. I never had trouble before. I want to have good art grades. Earlier in this class my grade was very bad because I was so discouraged with my ability to pull off an assignment that I gave up like I have in the past. I can't think of a brilliant idea. I want my last grade to be good in this class. I'm fed up with poor grades.

This is not a good season I'm going through. I guess I want to get a perfect or good grade on everything and I feel sad when I don't. Then that makes me feel I didn't do a good job or something, but I thought I did? It doesn't seem like anyone else is kicking themselves for their lateness. I guess since I'm going through other things with my talents right now I'm taking it harder. SIGH. Its all MY FAULT as much as I hate to admit it right now. I do want good grades in all of my art classes.